Its wednesday of recess week, and I have not studied a single bit. It takes me 2 days to complete.. Oh wait.. its not even complete! its BROWSE THROUGH 1 freaking note.. TWO DAYS!!! OMG! That's like major BAD!!! And after pondering about it.. I realised why..

I FREAKING DO NOT KNOW HOW TO STUDY!!!

I really don't! I don't know where to begin. The beginning is easy... then it gets more and more complicated, then I don't know am I supposed to memorize this.. Then if I memorize it, I will forget in 10 min, then I get stressed.. But I still continue.. Then more bio jargon comes out.. And i get more and more confused.. Then after a while I will digress...

Its just so much bio stuff. What IF1 and IF3 go here go there, then IF2 come here.. then EF1 and EF3 comes.. then from 43S rRNA suddenly become 40S ribosome.. ARGH! Its so bloody irritating. Then every other diagram tells me something else. Plus its a different mechanism for bacteria and humans.... AM I SUPPOSED TO MEMORIZE THIS?!

I have already lost the ability to differentiate the tRNA, the synthase, the EF-TU (whats that?!), the IF, the adenylation (God knows what's that also).. even normal A level stuff becomes amazingly un-understandable. The bloody ribosome becomes 30S and 50S.. then the 16S rRNA of the 30S ribosome comes out of god knows where! ARE U FREAKING KIDDING ME?!

Then I think "ok, maybe this is too much bio for me, lets go to another module..." BUT WAIT!!! ALL MY FREAKING MODULES ARE BIO!!! OMG! Its like no running away from bio!

I seriously need help. I don't know how to go about doing this. Uni is suddenly, and finally, becoming hard. I can force myself to study, but I don't understand. If I don't understand, then what on earth is the whole point of studying it in the first place. Oh man...

I can stare at the comp from 8 to 12, just rotting... Not studying.. then I lament bout how lazy I am.... then I will convince myself I will study the next day.. then the cycle just continues.. People think I study very hard... HAHAHAHAHA. Rubbish. I lie to myself thinking I study very hard. A fucking 1 hour of staring at the notes isn't studying very hard. HECK! Its not even studying!

I.... NEED..... HELP!!!!

I really wish I was the way I was in secondary school. I convinced myself I was studying hard in jc... That of course didn't turn out well.. Now it's happening again..

Someone help me before it happens again. Please.

Before I post about the wonderful presents I got, I decided to, while in the shower, blog about my ugly dress sense in the past. Let's go criticize myself!!!

*Caution: Pictures may cause serious visual bleeding.View at own discretion*



First 3 months in S7C with Caveat, Junlong and me. What the hell is up with my rubbish hand signs. AND MY HAIR LOOKS LIKE CRAP!!! How on earth did I ever go out on the streets looking like...like that?! EEEE. Para in 2004 had REALLY bad hair. Luck Para in 2009 does not. Cause Para in 2009 cuts his bloody hair every 2/3 weeks. Such a waste of money.... Tsk tsk.. Oh well.. The price of looking good. =)




Sec 4 prom night. Not many pictures to choose from since most of them are really quite painful to look at, I mean the fashion. Guys then did not have much clue bout what to wear right? Para in 2003 was disappointed that every guy WAS IN THE FREAKING SAME ATTIRE! OMG! Para in 209 totally understands why. Look at that ugly thing lei... What Para in 2009 wears to orchard road sometimes can easily trump that ugly thing. Ok its not THAT ugly, but it looks quite blah la... Given that Para in 2003 thought he had some fashion sense. OBVIOUSLY NOT! At least jeremy came in a tie... Eeee. And someone please go back into the past and tell Para 2003 that he doesn't know how to smile. I would so rock the prom night now if I could go back in time... Oh well.. Sad fashion sense..




OI! WA PIANG EH! Go look in the mirror lei... I dunno what to say... The horror =X




Erm... Erh... Para in 2004 REALLY had no clue that his hair was so toot right? Para in 2009 really really cannot fathom how Para in 2003 thought he could go out into the streets looking like that. My hair was really that bad meh. I mean... Its really quite scary that I allowed myself to step out of the house looking like that. I always do mirror test what... Para in 2003, you scare Para in 2009. I did like that long sleeve though. God knows where it disappeared to...




HAHAHAHAHA. Para in 2003/4 wants me to pull his hair. HAHAHAH Whats up with the protrusion in the forehead! HAHAHAHHA

Ok, I can't find any humiliating pics already... Anymore I shall upload! Enjoy these ugliness first!

*Para, 2009 edition*