cannot slp... @_@ ITS 4.30 IN THE MORNING!!!! ARGHH...

Rewind back to friday... Met Long, yz and dong for dinner and movie. Bought yz a football for his bday. Long n I were in the store wondering wad the hell was the difference btw "futsal size" and "size 5", and we were wondering whether the ball was the correct size... Tat's wad u get when u get 2 pple who dun play soccer buyin a soccer ball... Anywaes, went to to eat Pizza Hut and watched Nanny McPhee..Quite a nice show.. After tat went to dong's house, played cards until like 4 in the morning.. Played some new game, rather fun...

Anw went to NTU open house the next day... Nth much happened there... U cld say it was boring.. Went to meet Al, Yilin, Pear, SL and KW after the open house.. ate at marina sq, walked like dunno how long from marina to chinatown, only to find settler's cafe fully booked...walked all the way back to funan, then had CoffeeBean.. Nice cup of Pure CHocolate with a heap of whipped cream..yumyumyum =D

Sunday went to NUS open house.. Walked like ages from the sports area to the Fac of engineering..I, as usual, was complaining and whinning all the way.. We walked up staircases, along corridors.. Even those staircases which we clearly knew wasnt gonan bring us anywhere, we walked up that also.. Me, being the stupid idiot, walked past a door saying "Dean Of ice".. and I asked them , wad's "dean of ice?" "got such thing meh?"... turns out it was "Dean Office", jus that someone removed the F, and I, being the stupid idoit, thought it was Dean Of Ice... ate at mac, prices there rather cheap.. walked thru the eng. fac, where i screamed my head out when a BEE ATTACKED ME, and the students stared at me..sigh...

Walked all the freaking way back to the main area, went to the exhibits, saw Matin, then went to SMU open house...which was more or less BORING! saw Anusha there.

Went to eat sumo house with YY and SL ytd..haven been there for such a long time, esp with them 2. Sat there and chit chatted for like 2 hrs.. then went to play arcade, where I tried my hands on the drum machine..and made a foold out of myself.. oh well

Was suppose to go for my jap lesson today, but shilin and I decided to pon..OH man! the feeling of ponning..i missed it.. it makes u feel excited and guilty at the same time.. hahaz. Went to eat Subway(my 1st time..and def. not my last).. then went to esplanade...then went to citylink to eat gelare..the waffer at half price.. yumyumyum again..hahaz

Oki dok. Hands tired, but eyes still not tired..so I shall stop typing. Bye!

*You can't always get what you want*

Wad I did today...hmm...

Went for piano! Again! Exam in like a few more hours! Excited! hopefully I pass this time.. whee~ altho my playin still sucks big time, I think I am more prepare than last time... anywaes exactly erm, 6 mths ago, 9/9/2005 I took the exam...now exactly half a yr later, 9/3/2006, I am re-takin the exam... I seriously hope I pass, it cld be a good omen that I may do well for my As.. =D

Was eatin and chattin in msn jus now, when this FREAKIN HUGE cockroach suddenly appeared! WTF la... wa lao... I quickly took the insectiside and sprayed it continuosly for like 1 min, full fire... so much insectiside that even the curtain was drippin with the insectiside..and yes, the "poor" cockroach died! WAHAHAHAHAHA. Had to wake my poor dad up so he cld clear the cockroach for me..hehe.. in NO way was I gonna pick that icky thing up.... *shudders*

Gonna slp..lets all pray and hope I pass =D

*Do unto others what U wld do unto yourself*

Lemme see... 2 yrs ago, I did considerably well for my Os, and with all the freedom in the world, I got to choose the JC of my choice.. of all the JCs, I chose Ny.. a choice I kinda still regrett... The only things I enjoyed in NY were the frens I made.. My PW mates...My class..My clique of 8...My LTC camp mates...My OG mates when I was in J1 and when in j2 as OGL... other than tat.. I didnt really enjoy NY... I alwaes felt more inferior to everyone else.. Seeing that my feelings of inferiority were, and is still so great, I sld have chosen a better JC... Y can't I be just contented with wad I have..WHY!

I'm glad I made such good frens in NY =D The times we had durin lunch break, laughing at every shtupid joke ah-tay made.. The times we played bridge, 8 of us.. The times we had PW in mac, tay and soph wld make each others blood boil, while yilin n I jus sat there and god-noes-wad we did.. Bubble tea at the shop outside skool after PE... Laughin at yilin's uh-hum... Laughin at how KW stank after PE.. Wearin that bikini durin LTC... times when YY, SL n I ate at sumo house nearly everyday durin dec hols lamenting how lonely we felt... sigh... these and many other memories are the only good ones I had in NY.. If u want me to say I like the skool, I don't think I can bring myself to say that..If u want me to say I like the frens I made in NY, then I wld say that is a rhetorical question. =)

I aint a perfectionist... I aint a dreamer... I am jus competitve... But seeing that I am not the least bit self-motivated, and very much the lazy-arse that I am, I am a disgrace to the lot of competitive pple out there... WOW! Failure is my middle name...

Forgive the rubbish that I am writing...

Tryin very hard to smile...

Will I do better at this yr's As? I thought I cld get an A for chem n bio.. then at least i wld only need to retake math... oh well... Blame it on me for diggin my own grave...

Voice inside my head tells me to stop being such a whinner...

*The doctrine of dualistic principle is about the contrast and opposition between the tonic and the dominant*

Never in a thousand years would I ever have thought I would have to make the decision to retake my As... sigh...

Never in a thousand years did I ever think I could get a D for a subject..

My pride, crushed. My ego, torn. My dignity, smashed.

I may smile..but I still feel crushed... Until I see an A.. for the sake of my pride...

Its damn irritating.. I brought this upon myself..disappointed noone but myself. Its my fault...

For the sake of my pride.... I aint giving up... Protecting wads mine...

*Broken...*