i was in a good mood...until i told my mum i wanted to drop my econs...she immeadiately said wad some god noes wad stupid stuff..i mean like its jus droppin a bloody fucking A yer noe...wads the problem? its not like the its gonna affect my uni admission rite..wad the hell...instead of encouragin me she was jus rubbin it in my face..mayb it wasnt her intentions but tats wad i feel..i am jus bloody mad now...she jus gives me tat stupid "its up to u" tone..."its becoz u didnt attend ur tutorials n lectures rite" or "u didnt learn properly last yr"...wtf...i feel so exasperated talkin to her..hello of coz i attended my tutorials or they wld be sendin a bloody letter yer noe..she nv ever ever ever ever ever blifs in me..ya i noe i am stupid n i cant be compared to my cousins(wth i scored better than them)..but NO..my mum still thinks i am some stupid idiot..do i look like the kind who wld pon all my tutorials..this is stupid..i wanna cry..i wanna shout n scream at the top of my lungs...my cousins did 3 As n she didnt sae anything..wad the hell la.... my good mood jus spoilt like tat..tot i cld have a happie entry 2dae...arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...i am mad... i dun care i am dropping..no wae i aint gonna stick ard any longer..wadeva she saes...stupid life i have....another sad entry...stupid para...argh i need to find a place to vent my anger..wth she alwaes compares me to god noes which bloody child she sees on the bus or shoppin centre...the stupid ACJC kid has to so nerdy to be studying his Economist mag n my mum will come n tell me "i saw this ACJC kid studying his stoopid magazine blah blah blah blah"... hey i have no interest in econs then y the bloody hell sld i continue with it...its stoopid...she jus luuuurrrrves to be a wet blanket...my life sux...totally...ask her to type a fuckin letter to sae i am droppin she dun wan..ask her to sign the fuckin letter she also dun wan...wads the problem man...its not like i am askin her to sign some letter of expellation rite...how the hell am i supposed to noe wad to type...I am already tryin to supress my anger n talk to her..i feel like exploding..argh..n since i am in such a freakin good mood..i jus purposely typed her name on the form so she had no choice but to sign it...haiz...sorry..my anger is jus turnin into sarcasm now......i sld stop writing...bye..

i am mad..really mad..mad with myself..who the hell do i think i am..jus bcoz i think i did well for O levels i immediately assume i am gonna do the same for my As..fuck(excuse me for using this)..everything is jus in a total mess rite now..i was tryin to find my tutorials but i cldnt coz my files were all so disorganized..n tat pissed me off..i tried to do my hudroxy cmpds tutorial but ended up scolding the lecturer saying that her tutorial wksheets suck..wad the hell..i ended up clearin up my files..haiz..my life i jus fucking screwed up...i think i am gonna drop my econs already...cant take it..i dun have the drive to study tat..god noes y i even took that in the first place..hmm let me thinkk..mayb coz i freakin tot i was SO bloody clever that i cld handle 4 As..wow..i told my mum i will do it..yea rite..when she asked me whether i need maths tuition i jus got pissed off n said i no need..yea like anyones gonna blif tat..fucked up attitude i have..this sucks..n until i do smth bout it, it will cont to suck..its already march for heaven's sake n i am still go slack bout it..wad the hell am i doin i seriously dunno..i jus snapped todae...my life is in turmoil..i need help!!! drowning in problems i created myself n instead of trying to safe myself, i am jus sinkin in deeper n deeper...

i went to see the new maths tuition teacher todae at potong pasir(somehow all the maths teachers i have been having for the past 3 yrs all live in potong pasir)..anywaes, the place he lives in in so bloody freakin ulu..it looks like some sick mental holidae chalet la..the place really sux..its supposed to be a hdb mansionette but the whole block jus looks hospital-ish..n when i went into his house, all his tution kids were lookin at me..so bloddy awkward la..they were giggling n laughing at god noes wad..lucky they are jus sec 4 or 3..so not in my grp..hope they fail their Os....ok i take tat back..i dun really like tat place..sighx..

my life is fucked up.....go figure..=X

ok this place has been dead for much too long..i didnt spend so much time last december to do up the blog jus to see it die..hahaz..so yup..from 2dae on..i shall put an effort to blog everydae..i noe my life is quite boring but jus write them down will leave memories...hahaz..

did pretty much nth todae..lazed at home n did 3 qns off my hydroxy cmpd tutorial..haha..guess wad?! i made macaroni n cheese 2dae all by myself!! woo hoo!! n i didnt burn down the kitchen..i was bathing when i suddenly tot of wad to have for lunch..yep mac n cheese...so i surfed the net for some recipes, got down a damn simple one(req only mac,cheese,milk,pepper n salt), n went to NTUC to buy em..baked it in the oven(my first time baking) n after like 35 min, i made myself a fresh bowl of mac n cheese! whee~ so happie! i wanna learn to cook for myself..sld try more recipes next time..hahaz..only bad thing is i think i aint v.used to eating so much cheese so after like eating 1/4 of the mac n cheese i kinda threw it awae =X so much for effort eh...oh well..at least i successfully did it..*gleams* my first bowl of mac n cheese...ahhhhh

arghh!!! i am so freakin sad!!! y mus fredrick n kendra win!!! y y y y y?!!! i was rootin for kris n jon...y cldnt kendra jus choke on the freakin pizza....bleah...its so wasted...their(fredrick n kendra)'s cabbie got lost while kris n jon's cabbie knew how to go there!!! argh n in the end....fredrick n kendra won...nnnnoooooo...haiz.... =(

on a happier note, its new yr todae! whee! haha! holidaes..oh yea..hahhaz..i did mostly nth todae, jus watch tv n do bio tutorial..yippies i read thru photosynthesis n completed the tutorial..yep yep glad that i understand the topic now...whee~ i sld be studying respiration now..i am not gonna slp unless i finish respiration tutorial todae..nope nope i aint gonna slp..no wae..hahaz..talked to wee long jus now..for like an hour? or was it less than that? hmm hmm dunno but ya but talked to him..hahaz..then i did nth else..ok this is gettin boring dun u think..i cant write anymore so i shall shut up n leave..bye bye =P

in a holidae mood again..hahaz coz 2moro got no lessons so i aint doin any of my work..hehez...had lots of fun in skool 2dae..my class is seriously crazy la..hahaz..first durin lunch we were laughing so much it was practically like, i eat a spoonful of food,hahahahhahaz,then take the 2nd spoon,hahahahhahaahaz,3rd spoon,hahahhahaz..it went on forever until i cldnt finish my food coz i was too well, no more appetite..hahaz..then after that we were playing london bridge is fallin down..actually only shilin me n kai wei were playing la hahaz but it was fun..long time haven play..hahaz..then after that we went to wait for our GP lecture..hahaz so while waiting we had a water fight, and pple really got drenched this time, namely me n yilin..it all started with that alvin la..in the end it escalated to until like 10 pple in the class were playing with water and screaming about, while other classes were lookin at us..hahhaz damn funny sia..lol..there u have it, the results of being to stressed...lol

during econs mr lawrence asked us, would we rather spend $80 on a bouquet of flowers on valentines dae for ur gf OR wld u spend $20 on the same bouquet plus a $60 dinner for ur gf one week AFTER valentines...which wld u choose? i chose the first one..find its more romantic tat wae...hahhaaz..

there was this damn funny scene in desperate housewives today..it was like they were having this dinner of 8 pple, and they were talkin bout their most embarassing moments they had..suddenly the hostess(to spite her hubby who pissed her off) said : "(dunno wad his name is) cries after ejaculating" hahahahahhahaz..that part was like OMG! hahhaz so damn funny la..the hubby of coz stormed out of the house..hahahz...cant believe man..haha...wondering whether to pon skool on fridae..practically my whole class wanna pon to go to serene's chalet there..i noe my mum wont allow..so i gotta try to persuade her...difficult..hahaz..i mean whats the point of goin back when ur class aint even there eh..plus we only have 2 tutorials on fridae..nth much missed..yep yep i shall end here..hahaz..bubbye

hmm...i was looking for a new template, but none of them looked nice lei..sianz..hahaz in the end i decided to jus touch up me old blog, and hey presto!!! this is wad i get! i lurve it!! spot the differences? finding a suitable pic is like so difficult la, first must find a proper size one,too small when resize will look stretched..then find one le must change to colourless,not coulourless look v.funny on my white background, then must cut the old pic out from the template and paste the new one, then mus post it onto photobucket, then mess around with the html code, and bleah then can see the new product...so after god noes how many times i repeated the process, i finally managed to come up with this..now my only dilema is whether the pic of Arwen here sld be embossed(givin it its blurrish look)or jus a normal colorless one,which is more sharper la...hahaz..later then i decide.v.tired..

anywaes caught a movie over the weekend with hua dong..watched flight of the phoenix..overall quite a nice show la..tot it wld be boring at first, but it was quite funny n eh..how to sae..ya nice..hahaz..worth the money..yupz..hahaz..did some work 2dae..ionic equilibria and the stoopid integration..man its so bloody difficult la...i cant do so many..i think i am jus stoopid when it comes to maths..bleah..dun wanna talk bout it...here are the trial and error pics i used on the blog..hahaz enjoy..hahaz

yOZ! hahaz long time no see..well well, since i am free now might as well update da blog..hahaz..

anywaez jus came back from Chinatown with my classmates..hahaz went there to get the "chinese new year atmosphere" hahaz...at first it wasnt that crowded, i mean as compared to geylang during hari raya la, but when we goin back time it was damn crowded, and the place was very small(as in the alleys were quite narrow)..hahaz had a blast there..very very fun!! lolz..we all bought coconut juice n walked about holding the coconut shell thingy tryin to scrape the fleshy bits out..hahaz..well the most interesting thing tat happened there was tat rite, u noe those bazaars where they have these so-called "kung-fu masters" showing how powerful there are, when in fact they are jus trying to sell some medicated oil? u noe those? yea well anywaes we went to see it la coz it looked quite interesting at first..yilin,shilin,serene,alvi,kai wei n me were in the front row la and the crowd was quite big around the area..then that "master" actually called up kai wei n alvin up to volunteer lor..hahahhaz it was damn funny la, we were laughin like mad there when the others in the crowd were like watching the thing so attentively..hahahaz..pls lor 2 teenagers demonstrating in this kinda show? hahahaz..after a while kai wei was sent back n poor alvin was there all alone to demonstrate more of that fella's thing..that "master" damn naggy la, one moment sae this,then next he sae tat, then he will repeat the same thing over n over n over again..pls lor..alvin was SUPPOSED to wait jus like 2 min to demonstrate the next item(its where the freaky fella mananged to make alvin turn his arms 360 degrees about his shoulder..damn disgusting..:X), n 2 min became 15 min...wa lao..he got alot of action one lor...worst than mrs goh..for once there is soemone more naggier than her...bleah..we were standing there from like 9 to 930...after tat we were seriously too tired to walk anymore so we went back..hahaz was a very cool night with them...n kai wei said the "master" keeps baby ghosts coz he had a jar with a foetus lookin thing in it..freaky man...

whoa this is my first time(or is it 2nd? hmm..) seeing a whole food court which is totally halal la! so happie lor! i like ate carrot cake n then went to eat chicken noodles..n the rest were thinkin i go crazy le..as if i were upset over something n was stuffin myself with food to drown my sorrows..hahahaz no la, i jus v.happy got so much nice food can eat, so i buy lor..somemore i dunno y i feel like spending money lor, i like finsihed piano lesson n i had this sudden urge to splurge my money shoppin...like walked ard city hall the area for like 2 1/2 hours waiting for them...cldnt find anything suitable..in the end bought gatsby spray n styled my hair up b4 meetin them...hahahahaz..crazy eh..its not as if i like v.rich myself also..hehez..

i want a new piano!!! my piano class there got 2nd hand one then my teacher sae grade 8 sld get better piano..altho' my current one is first hand but i want a new piano!!! gimme a new piano!!! my piano itself a bit sot one la,press the pedal n some of the keys will become stuck there..cant play properly..hahaz..

anywaes too tired to continue..so i shall end it here..hahahahaz tata!!!